On a Friday not too long ago a beautiful little girl was brought into the world. A head full of black hair. A sweet angel face. A week after her grand entrance she has left just as quickly as she came. Complications arose ending her life entirely too quickly and leaving behind hearts full of sorrow and pain.

It is in these moments that I express a quiet gratitude for the gospel in my life. I contemplate the peace that fills my heart and my soul as I think of a life that has passed entirely too quickly. It is now that my heart aches with a desire to teach, to share, and a hope of bringing peace into the lives of those around me. As I look into their faces I see pain, anguish, sorrow, and grief. Loss has become so very real to them and to me.

I sit with the thought that maybe, just maybe, through my prayers I will find a way to help and in time they will be healed.

because he said so....

I have been rebuked many times over the last few weeks about my lack of blogging. I will admit…I have found a new love which has led me to grossly neglect my old one.

But I have found that today, I am in desperate need of self-expression. In order to do so I thought that I would start with seeking a little motivation. Thank you Mooney! Nothing like a little public rebuke to set a girl straight and instill the desired motivation.

I love it!

So friends this is the beginning of a very earnest attempt to revive my blog….we will see what happens.

from my brain.....

https://twitter.com/cogitoergosum

waiting...

She opens the link waiting for the message to appear
Hoping that it is long enough
Long enough to distract her thoughts
To pull her away- from the things that are running through her head

She has never been a patient one
She doesn’t enjoy waiting
Her independent soul fights fiercely against the rules she is trying to live by
She doesn’t play games- and yet she still finds herself waiting

Waiting for a response
For an email, a phone call, a text
Something to tell her what is going on
Some gesture of communication-Some effort made on the others part

The message is short
Not enough of a distraction
And so she writes- putting her thoughts down
Hoping this will be the outlet that will allow her to focus

And it is- there is comfort found
Her soul is calmed- she can move forward
No longer waiting- but living
Carrying the hope with her, not allowing it to become a burden

Short excerpt from my brain.....

my tummy says "FEED ME!!!"


my mind says, "Stop your whining!"


right now my mind is winning- however my tummy has ways of exacting it's revenge.....


just wanted to let you know.

Fried.....

I think that about halfway through today someone thought that it would be fun to melt my brain....let me explain.

The day started off great- super productive. I spent time with a good friend, we laughed, ate, spent a ridiculous amount of money and had a great time. Then....someone, somewhere flipped a switch and my brain hit meltdown level. From about 3:00 on I was almost completely incapable of doing even the simplest of things without some level of difficulty. For example...I drove up and down the same street several times while attempting to pick up a friend. For some reason I could not find his house even though I had been there several times. I literally thought that I had lost my mind and got to the point where I had to call for directions. Upon doing so I was told that yes I was on his street just two blocks south of where I should be. And there I was thinking that aliens must have abducted either his house or my brain...you choose.

After that I found it much easier to cut fruit then to engage in conversation....

my life by music

so i have been blessed to have som epretty increible friends. so incredible, in fact, that they all pitched in and bought me an ipod for my birthday (more on that later). and so i thought what better way to say thank you then this....

my life in songs....

{as shown by those of you who have come before....on song, the first that comes up when my ipod is on shuffle, for each moment....i didn't skip, trust me...there were times i really wanted to......}

all for you....and it begins.....

opening credits: “a hard days night” -the beatles
ummmm…really do i need to say more? i am not quite sure how to react to this….let’s see where i go from here….

waking up: "the time warp"- lyrics
hmm….need i say more? what year should i be in??? better yet what century?

first day at school: "suo gan"- charlotte church
a lullaby on my first day….that must be why school has always been such a struggle….

falling in love: "sugarcoat it"- dc talk
“baby you got it, baby we wrote it, aint gonna hide it…” need i say more?

fight song: "all you need is love” the beatles
seriously….it this a joke? this is freaking me out!!!!

breaking up: "amazing grace”- charlotte church
wow….i really hope that break up comes quickly cause it must be pretty bad to deserve a song like that…..

prom: “i am a man of constant sorrow” -the soggy bottom boys
hmm….that was actually slightly similar to my prom experience…..

life's ok: "not hot to trot”- von iva
so i am not sure why this is on my ipod….but i think that it is a suiting song for this one…i’ll take it!

mental breakdown: "carol of the bells” –charlotte church
this song does have a tendency to make me slightly mad when i have listened to it entirely too many times….

driving: "your body is a wonderland” john mayer
often times i just like to drive off and find out where i end up. it works.

inner smile: "sleigh ride"- jack jones
this makes me laugh….i love it!!!!

flashback: "i want to hold your hand” – the beatles
love it, love it, love it….this is just way too true…..

getting back together: "shame"- brian webb
oh,wow! do i really need to add to that?

wedding: “jingle bells” –count baise and orchestra
a completely instrumental song about Christmas. either i will get married in the winter or it will be chrsitmas….you choose.

birth of a child: "brian wilson” barenaked ladies
befitting of such a circumstance…at least bits and pieces.

final battle: "she was honest” –brian webb
and the truth has spoken….need I say more…okay minus the whole girlfriend and desperate/easy part…

death scene: "es mentiroso"- daddy yankee
my question is…what in the world did he lie about???

funeral: "monster ballads” -josh ritter
hmm…..i am at a loss for words….good thing that it’s my funeral and i don’t need to speak.

just wanted to give a shout out to all of you! i love you.....

Labeled....

Apparently one of my coworkes was a bit concerned that I would not be able to find my way around my cube. In order to ease this concern they decided to label many items found within my cube.....

Labels have been attached to....

my monitor- look here
the phone- phone
lamp,
mouse
moose- a moose brought from the cold winters in Canada...
calculator
clock

It is a good thing. I was worried that one day I might get lost in my cube....did I mention that it measures 5'X7'???

The novel, I am...

You're Roots!

by Alex Haley

While almost everyone agrees that you're brilliant, no one knows quite
how to categorize you. Some say that you're a person with an amazing family tree. Some
say that you're just a darn good storyteller. Others say that you're both and don't much
care where to draw the line. What is known is that your people have been through a great
number of trials and that you are where you are because of hard work. You have nothing to
lose but your chains.


Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

The Wisdom....

Of getting yous wisdom teeth pulled.

So far this experience has been slightly, no very, unpleasant.

The procedure itself was great. I took the option of being completely knocked out. Which means that one of the last things that I remember is listening to the jokes that my surgeon was making. The next thing I remember is being woken up and being taken to a small room with a bed to lay down for a few minutes.

The worst part about it is that I can't keep anything in my stomach long enough to take any pain meds.

This means that this experience, which is supposed to grant you the right to be doped up on pain meds for a couple of days, has been a complete and utter scam.

Scam I tell you!

I am wondering if requesting an IV of morphine would be inappropriate....